Coming home....

and i am on my way back
back to the place i call home
for i had wandered far far away
from my cozy hearth
that which i love
that where i was destined by birth

for though my aching heart
reached out for a loving hand
for so long i did find
not a place nor a shelter
where i felt needed as i am

i was loosing this battle
a battle called life
i felt defeated, alone
life had mocked at me too oft
for those close never did understand
the others in comfert, aloft

but it was i who errd
for i ran from where i had alwys been
thus a foolish wanderer
who forgot to look within
for the light that guides had never left
and thus my true journey begins

the pathway alas still stretches far wide
yet not the horizon that it always seemed
for i can feel its warmth
and understand its song
A place for me to be
A place where i belong

The Last Flight

And I see a bright light

So far, far away
And my wings spread
Through the rubble, through the dirt
I push so hard
I fight with blood
Faster, faster
The lights there
And through the pain
And through the hurt
I carry my babies
My love, my family
To a land with abundant happiness
Where pain ceases to exist
Almost there.....Yes!



A bell rings not so far away
A knell, a calling
And here I lie through the rubble
And the dust
The blood and the muck
My broken wings
Nothing
And not one chirrup
My babies, none

Alas the light

Adieu, Adieu...

A love note...

As life takes you to eternity...
A journey so long...
A hand to hold on....
What better than that of a friend...
What better than that of yours...
A friend, my lover with whom i have no secrets...
With whom forever seems like a walk by the seashore
With each pebble a memory...
Where each wave of problems is enough to wet us but not drown...
And through it all...
You hold on to me so tight
So that even if I slip u wont let me hurt...
Love you...

Taking it to the next level....

letting go may be the answer
to that question i ask myself every moment


but thats it isnt it
we cant seem to let go
for a stupid word fear
keeps cuming back to haunt us

what happend to that fizz i wonder...
and yet...

for every love song i hear
and for all those moments
i surrender to sweet oblivion
you alwys seem to exist

real enuf to feel
true enuf to love



or were u alwys a true fren
but i simply let you u dig in too deep

these lines are very roughly written...just a thot......but i thto id write them here nonetheles.......lets see if i can work upon it............ :)

That angelic devil

as her dark lashes rest upon her cheeks aglow
as she smirks under that cute little tiny nose
as her lips part oh just so slightly
And touches her tongue, just for that special effect.

her fingers holds on to yours ever so slightly
yet you feel so helpless you cant let go
her tender touch makes you want to hug her
but you fear you'd crumble that delicate frame.

you look deep into her big bright eyes
magnetically holding on to you as if till eternity
for even when they close, the effect stays
your eyes cant leave her face and those lids do nothing to help you part

shes simply beautiful, so innocent, so pure
and yet you know, an evil grin may just be underneath
far away where no sane mind could reach
and try as we may, we cant fight this charm

we are but a bunch of helpless warriors
in love with this angelic devil
We think we are armed with our unwavering wit
but her form simply lures us without fail

oh this uncrowned queen knows just the right moves
a cry on her lips conjures one and all from places afar
but with a gurgle and with a coo and that elegent little sway
even he with a heart of stone shall have no opt but to sigh and stay

Holding out to a star...

Please help comfort her
She' holding out for you
An unsaid plea on her lips
She trusts u soo much
And yet she has inner desires
Assure her, love her
She misses it so
Tell her those fears are baseless
She knows but needs to be told
She has soo much to say
And so much has been left unsaid
An inner sob she hopes you hear
Feel her need and help her out
It's been a long time
And again she needs to know....

Of Depression

Unhealed sadness
Doth flows in each vein
Untold sorrow,
Unknown pain.

Where of it came from
I know not
How long tis would stay?
Whence the end would be brought?

There are no tears
There is no sigh
Yet tis ache persists
And a want to cry

And a shadow doth lingers
Not far apart
And unspoken questions
Doth pierce my heart

Oh thoust walls
I beseech thee
For let me fly
A soul so free

A silent goodbye
Needn’t be strung
For I would depart
Unnoticed unheard unsung


I know I have posted this poem way before. But since then it was not noticed i am reposting it. Also Ikinda feel wierd of not doing anything in my blog. I hope you enjoy this poem too.

Like a girl again...

And then I felt like a girl again
And then I felt so very innocent
As the raindrops sprayed across my body
Silently engulfing me into ecstasy.
As the wind blew across my face
Wrapping itself amidst my soft curls
I stare at the sun so hazy
And my heart stops short
A blush creeps in ever so slowly
Gently caressing my cheeks so soft
My clothes cling onto each curve so lovingly
As if leaving a gentle kiss from heaven above
And then I wondered
And then I wished
If only I could hold the wind to my bosom
And never let it go
If only I could ask the sun to stop winking
As if it could read my mind
If only I could hide behind those dark dark clouds
And never come out
But alas I know tis but all in this foolish little head of mine
And yet nothing could’ve felt more right
And yet nothing could’ve felt more true
Than this bittersweet way I felt
Just like a girl once again
As fresh and as young as the morning dew…

Angry ramblings..

i seriously thot aftr i had posted this poem....should i really let this show here.....u knw wat i mean..but somehow wen i read it again aftr i cooled down i kinda liked the rawness n the intensity in the poem so i am letting it be :)

hope u cud go thru the poem without getting dazed as to wth is happnin.. :P


Lifes funny u knw
Many tyms one hides the truth and many times runz away from it..

Have u ever fot for ur ryt??..............................
Been hurt in the process??..
Sumtyms its just not abt wat u see on the surfce ..
Mabe the object we fyt for..isnt wat we really desire..
Its our pride and our ryt we fyt for.

Irony is these fyts dnt happn with strangers..
Sometyms we get hurt by our own
Who ruthlessly..irrationally try and snatch wat is ours..

We share..
We care..
But then y do v stay togrthr…
If all we do is fyt over a mere object..
It was my fault partially…
For it wasn’t for the object I desired ..
It was a fyt for my pride…..
A tear is dying to come out..
A jeer looks ryt at me..
But I knw and I am brave..

It doesn’t flow..
It stays…
And then I jeer back..
Gotcha u creep..
I hit him whr it hurts the most..
I work on his weakness…his worse fear…
Yeh I behaved lyk a sadist… it felt nice..
Him physically…I gave it bk mentally
And he looses…he knws tht
But the scars remains..
And tht tear finally flows………..

So who wins????

SHIMMERING HORIZON (Dusk or Dawn)

A promise I had made to myself
A promise that now I broke
I thought I would have kept to it
But alas it wasn’t to be so
For yet again I let things go far
And yet again I trusted so much
But the past still haunts
Of the faults I had made
Of the choices I had picked
Of those memories of gore

And with that past I so thought
I had learnt my lesson
And moved on
Gods freedom I had then denied
For the choices I had made
I had made them wrong
To choose a friend
To journey beside me all along

Then yet again I stand today
With friends for eternity
But it took time
I trusted once more and it had paid
For God has been kind
And they’ve kept by me
And I know they’ll stay

But history they say
Repeats itself
And again that question arises
You came in too fast
For I couldn’t judge you
And allowed you so soon
That space I never gave

Oh yes you’ve been there
And yes you’ve trusted too
But what can I do
Of this fear that grips
Of that doubt and that hitch
Which so wrenches my heart
And shows me that moment
Of a time I’d be helpless
Of the day I wouldn’t find you
Holding my hand till eternity
And being forever there right beside me